It’s here. Tomorrow is the day I turn the big 3-0. Looking back, I think I always thought this would be a hard birthday for me. I remember turning 20 and thinking OMG, in 10 years I’ll be 30, Ew. I always thought this one would scare the shit out of me and that I would never want to leave my twenties behind.
A lot of people I know seem to be afraid of getting older. Well guess what? I can’t fucking wait!
I guess you can say my 20’s weren’t typical. Or at least, in my group of friends they weren’t. I met the three loves of my life in my twenties. The three people who make my life better everyday and they don’t even know it. My babies. My 20’s were overflowing with late nights, all nighters, early mornings, diaper changes, spit up, a lot of crying, laughing and more love than I ever thought my heart could handle.
Now that my thirties are here, I’m excited, my kids are getting older. As much as I will always miss them being tiny babies, I won’t miss the struggles that went a long with it. (I’m talking to you teething, you bastard!) I’m excited that they’re growing up. Yes, they’re still little people and need me a lot but A LOT less now. They can finally do things for themselves, they can get a cup of milk or get dressed by themselves. Even if I have to wipe up spilled milk after they pour it or fix their socks after they put them on, it makes a huge difference and gives me a little time to finally think about myself, even if that means just taking a 5 minute shower, or throwing on some mascara, I get a little time and I know I’ll get more and more time in the coming years. We’re moving on to a different kind of neediness, and I’m not gonna lie..I’m loving it.
My twenties taught me how to be selfless, strong, vulnerable and taught me that I could handle a lot more shit than I ever thought possible.
As much as I learned through out this decade, I think I lost myself a little at some point and I feel like my thirties will be the perfect time to find myself again. I think I need that, to be a better mother, wife, friend and overall a better person.
So, peace out twenties. It’s been a slice. Let’s do this 30.